CNN You're Bothering Me

i'm sitting here finally watching tv coverage of the earthquake in Japan cuz thus far i've only been reading about it in the paper and hearing it on the radio. And seeing what i am seeing my heart is breaking. I don't know what exactly it is about this one out of the three many that have been happening, but watching this i actually started crying sitting here by myself.
in my permanent state of metacognizance i'm trying to figure out why i didn't cry for the other things which i definitely feel were devastating too.

I'm watching on CNN and it's no shocker that the rockstar of all hotspot news coverage Anderson Cooper is already there live and direct to cover it all until the next disaster elsewhere happens. I mean wasn't he in Haiti, Egypt, Libya?! I swear the first thing i thought when i saw him was is what is going on in all those other places over? No it's not, but it's not "braeking news" for the American media machine cuz really it's not there to be fully concerned and dedicated to solutions or even genuine sympathy. Actually, correction - *compassion. Where is it? The coverage just strikes me as almost marveling at the disaster and destruction that has happened there.

I think the reason I was crying is because it's like watching someone watch someone else on fire and instead of pouring water on the burning person you wanna talk about how big the flames on their body are and u can't believe they are not stop-dropping and rolling. I'm almost ashamed by the coverage and when this damage is still so very fresh and possibly going to fester before any process of healing begins and i hear quotes like "the economic toll is already estimated to be in the 100s of billions"

-_-

Are you kidding me? And then there go Soledad! Soledad O'Brian. Just so you guys know I don't know enough about them as individuals so this is in no way a personal attack. Disclaimer complete. But when I saw her reporting from northern Japan my first thought was daaaang girl u big time now?! From Black in America to the frontlines of Japan?! Now you all know Sanjay Gupta will never be too far away as long as there are human beings dying in large numbers and there is potential for a lot more deaths.

It all just seems like entertainment - to them. I feel ashamed to be watching the suffering of other human beings and it's presented to me as entertainment. It offends me and quite honestly it all boils down to "ubuntu".

One word. For those that know what it means it means soooooo much.

That's what is lacking in the coverage.

My rant is done because i'm not realizing that what i'm feeling can't fully be expressed in English because language truly is a reflection of thoughts and ideas that are culturally specific.

Like is someone asks you, "how do you say this totally sucks in your language?" Sometimes u can't express it fully because that isn't an idea expressed in your language and even the closest translation doesn't quite hit the nail on the head.

anyway, #thatisall

#fornow

(the end is nigh, we are naught)

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oh yeah i heard an amazing sermon today and in addition to appreciating what was being said I was interpreting it and applying it in a different context. The preacher was talking about how there is nothing more powerful or dangerous than someone who sins and God doesn't strike them down. He also talked about how sin looks so good. He also talked about what Satan used to appeal to Eve in the garden of Eden - self-preservation, self-discovery and self-determination. Then I looked at myself and the country i live in.

Carrying on with my parallel interpretation of what i heard today is a whoooole other blog post and I don't feel like it. Gotta sleep. But i'll leave you all with that and perhaps you can think along the lines of what I was thinking.

in closing i have a quote, one of my favorite:

"Can the liberties of a nation be secure when we have removed a conviction that these liberties are a gift of God. Indeed, I tremble for my country when I reflect that God is just..." -Thomas Jefferson


ok ok ok #thatis[really]all


p.s. are birds going to start falling out of the sky again because of all the radiation that is already leaking and will only get worse like the did before? Why were they falling out the sky anyway?! The media machine just stopped talking about it like it stopped talking about Haiti, Niger, Sudan, Congo, Tunisia....but we don't really know what caused it.

#kbye